Long time no post...

Ok so...I found this again because I wanted to comment on a friend's journal. The layout is broken, and I don't care enough to fix it. I also don't currently care enough to post a real update. I was just reading back through some of the entries, and I'm honestly surprised I posted as much as I did about the depression surrounding Kirby's death. I had a separate journal hosted on greatestjournal (which has since been removed because gj died), and I used to pour my soul out onto that thing. I'm just surprised I posted any of it here because I remember not wanting anyone to know how bad I was hurting. I don't try to hide it now, but I did then. Reading the journal entries was starting to get depressing, though, so I'm done reading them for now.

I always had shit for spelling/typing skills. >.>

I also find my personality from then annoying. lol (Not because of the depression, but just because of how I word things...I think...idk).

Anyway, that's all.
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Update (like woah)

Since I used the layout for this as a guinea pig for another journal and completely fucked it up, I decided to just find one online because I just don't care enough to make one myself. It's not like I use this thing anymore. Oh well. Yay obligatory layout change post. I'll post again in 6 months. Woo.
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I don't know what made me decide to post in this thing, but for some reason I wanted to.

A lot has been going on with me since the last time I posted. I'm almost done with school (thank God), and soon I will have a real job/won't be poor anymore. I'm glad school is almost over forever (unless for some stupid reason I decide to go to grad school, which has actually been at the back of my mind a lot lately). If I do decide on that, it will be after I've taken a year off. I just need some serious chill time.

I've changed a lot over the last two years, and I know it's for the better. I'm a much happier person than I was before, and I'm doing much better with school and work. My grades are even really good now. I guess I had way too many distractions before.

I've also learned the difference between a real friend and a fair-weathered one. I was disappointed about a lot of people, but that's just life. People disappoint you. I remember Kirby saying once after she got sick that she learned who her real friends were and how much it hurt, and I remember thinking how sad it was for her. I guess we all learn that lesson at some point or another. I'm glad I got it out of the way. I wouldn't trade my real friends for anything.

I've been thinking about redoing my old brinkster website a lot lately. I have a pretty layout in mind, but it's going to take a while to do it. So, it will just have to wait until the end of this semester. I guess I can wait another month or so. It won't kill me.

Mom and John moved out of the house I grew up in into a house about a block from where I went to high school. It's a beautiful house. I was actually really glad that they moved out of that house. The new house seems so...happy. I guess that's because there's none of the old history like the old house had. Even Brittany noticed a big difference between the two in terms of mood, etc. It was good to put that part of my life behind me.

I'm currently living with my dad (again). I'm not particularly happy about it, but it's only for a couple of months until I finish school. Then I will be able to get my own place. At least for the time being, I don't have to worry about rent, utilities, etc, which always left me so incredibly stressed out because it never felt like I made enough money to cover it all.

I doubt I'll keep posting in this thing. Maybe in 6 months the need will strike me to again. We shall see. Now, though, I have homework that hast to be done (even though it is Spring Break).
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I haven't posted in this thing in like forever. So, I think it's time to post the obligatory midterm grades. I'm quite proud.

CSC 4330 (Software Engineering) B
CSC 4101 (Programming Languages) A
CSC 4501 (Networking) B
CSC 3370 (Java) B
CSC 1200 (Ethics in Computing) A
BIOL 1005 (Biology Lab) B

I'm like bordering an A and B in both my Biology Lab and 3370. Still, I can't bitch. I'm almost done with school, and this horribly busy semester will be over soon. And I love my new job. <3

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Since I don't really update this thing anymore, I guess I will today. It was a pretty eventful day.

I met Glenda for lunch today, which was a lot of fun. I really miss talking to her. It sucked that 45 minutes can go so fast (I had to get to class).

After class, Graugnard and I went to Kirby's grave. It was good to go there with her. We stood there and talked for a little while about Kirby and some of the goofy things she used to do. I'm really glad we went. After that, we went to see The Wizard of Oz at Ascension. Michael was a flying monkey. At the end, Erin asked him if he remembered me, and he said, "That name sounds vaguely familiar," or something like that. I felt loved. :p Mr. Mark's little girl Sarah was Toto. She's so freaking adorable. It's wierd though because before tonight, the last time I saw her she was only a few months old. She's 4 now. She was so cute though because whenever they'd blow bubbles on the stage for Glenda the Good Witch, she would jump up and try to catch them. She also just kept rolling around the stage the whole time. I wanted to talk to Mr. Mark after the play, but he left before Erin and I could get over there. I was glad to see Erin's family though since I hadn't seen them in so long.

After the play, Erin was explaining to me about how she doesn't like talking to Mrs. Laura because it's always this fake sugar-coated tone that she has when she sees us. But, we went see her anyway, and sure enough, she did exactly that. At one point, she asked, "So how's Kirby doing?" Erin and I just kind of looked at her for a minute not knowing what to say, and then Erin finally said, "Mrs. Laura....Kirby passed away...." Then Mrs. Laura realized what she said and corrected it, asking how Kerry was. Still, it felt really wierd when she asked that.

So far I know my exam schedule for 4 classes, and I have 3 on Thursday (2 computer science classes and a math class) and one on Friday (English). I think the other Math final might be on Friday....how...fun. I'm definitely going to try and get that other Math final moved though....3 tests in one day is going to kill me.

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Because I have to copy this shit

Your senior year in High School is supposed to be "the best year of your life." Let's see how much you remember. I know for some it might be hard for you to go back that far!

Year: 2002

1. Who were your best friends?
Alicia, Erin Gr, Erin Gu, Kirby, Megan, Summer

2. What sports did you play?
Does dance team count?

3. What kind of car did you drive?
Umm...I think I was driving the black Prizm (I THINK). I just remember wrecking it on the way to karate after graduating.

4. It's Friday night, where were you?
Dancing for football games.

5. Were you a party animal?

7. Ever skip school?

8. Ever smoke?

9. Were you a nerd?
I guess?

10. Did you get suspended/expelled?

11. Can you sing the Alma?

12. Who was your favorite teacher?
Mr. Mark

13. Favorite class?

14. What was your schools full name?
Ascension Catholic High School

15. School mascot?

16. Did you go to Prom?
Yep...Alicia was my "hot and sexy date"...or I was hers....I don't remember.

17. If you could go back and do it over, would you?
Some of it.

18. What do you remember most about graduation?
My sister crying...it was funny.

19. Favorite memory of your Senior Year?
Getting the part I wanted in Fame and dancing in Florida.

20. Did you ever get posted on the senior wall?
What's that?

21. Did you have a job your senior year?
Pfffft no.

22. Did you date?
A little bit but not really.

23. Where did you go most for lunch?
I either didn't eat or brought a lunch...We ate in the alley (Mr. Hager called us the "Alley Cats"...I saw him in Wal-Mart the other day. >.> )

24. Have you gained weight since then?

25. Where did you go after Graduation?
Summer's house for like the whole summer.

26. Did you have a crush on anyone?
Not that I remember. In middle school I had a crush on Chad.

27. What was your "label"?
I don't know.

28. What were you voted?

29. Did you lose contact with anyone you wish you hadn't?
Not really.

30. What was your favorite band
Linkin Park

31. Did you like your school?
Yes and no.

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Somebody forwarded this to me, and I though it was great:

Careful what you name your website...
ALL these websites actually exist and work-safe:

1. A site called "Who represents" where you can find the name of the agent that represents a celebrity.
Their domain name... wait for it... is www.whorepresents.com.

2. Experts Exchange, a knowledge base where programmers can exchange advice and views at www.expertsexchange.com.

3. Looking for a pen? Look no further than Pen Island at www.penisland.net.

4. Need a therapist? Try Therapist Finder at www.therapistfinder.com.

5. Then of course, there's the Italian Power Generator company - www.powergenitalia.com.

6. And now, we have the Mole Station Native Nursery, based in New South Wales: www.molestationnursery.com.

7. If you're looking for computer software, there's always www.ipanywhere.com.

8. Welcome to the First Cumming Methodist Church. Their website is www.cummingfirst.com.

9. Then, of course, there's these brainless art designers, and their whacky website: www.speedofart.com.

10. Want to holiday in Lake Tahoe? Try their brochure website at www.gotahoe.com.

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Happy Birthday Erin! (I actually remembered without facebook telling me so yay!)

I decided to skip going out this weekend because of the assload of homework I have. I'm going to get as much done today as I can (it's not all due tomorrow, but I'd rather get it out of the way).

Apparently they all love me at my new job. My manager's husband works with my mom, and he told her that they all say how they wish they had more of me around. That makes me happy. Apparently they said this because I work (like I'm not lazy) and that I'm really nice. So that made me smile. I really miss Glenda and them, though.

My head is pounding, so yay for short posts.